"Stay here for a little while more"
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Nothing More
I never wanted to have you,
Control you,
Or Keep you from everyone else.
I just wanted to be around you,
Next to you,
And be with you.
Control you,
Or Keep you from everyone else.
I just wanted to be around you,
Next to you,
And be with you.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Orphaned Emotions
What do I do with my feelings for you,
When there's no place to settle these leftovers,
And no one to receive them.
When there's no place to settle these leftovers,
And no one to receive them.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Friday, July 27, 2012
Music and Heartbreak
For as long as music accompanied life, itself, there is always that playist that reminds you of the one who broke your heart. Despite how many years have past, even after you have managed to pick yourself up after the fall, there's no way to purge the memory of where you were in your life when you fell hard for the one.
No matter how the distance in miles and in time, you will always care.
No matter how the distance in miles and in time, you will always care.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Music and Perseverance
For as long as we see the brightest of days and the darkest of nights, there will come tough times that seem impossible to endure through. In such circumstances, the best we can do is to tread water until the rough tides smooth out or to fight our way to the other side. Either way, it never hurts to a song, a playlist, or a soundtrack that understands.
In a hungry and unintentionally unfair world where the shortcomings and mistakes of people are used against them, there will always be a song to help you up after you've fallen lower than you thought possible. There will always be that playlist to put things into perspective when everything you fathomed to be truth proves to only be weak. Music will be there to help you break away from what you thought possible and light a new way to a place you never knew existed.
So never accept no for an answer. Never let yourself become lost in the circumstances of unfortunate times or in the words of others. Rough years will come and people will hurt you. But then they do, throw yourself back out there and always remember that your favorite songs will never change.
In a hungry and unintentionally unfair world where the shortcomings and mistakes of people are used against them, there will always be a song to help you up after you've fallen lower than you thought possible. There will always be that playlist to put things into perspective when everything you fathomed to be truth proves to only be weak. Music will be there to help you break away from what you thought possible and light a new way to a place you never knew existed.
So never accept no for an answer. Never let yourself become lost in the circumstances of unfortunate times or in the words of others. Rough years will come and people will hurt you. But then they do, throw yourself back out there and always remember that your favorite songs will never change.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Music and Silence
Silence is golden, a man once said.
Personally, there is an intensity to the silence of life that overwhelms me. It is usually the case when I cannot purge someone from my memories. When I only deepen the burden of emptiness when I remind myself of such a person. When I become urgently desperate to hastily fill in the void that has been left behind. When the emptiness proves overwhelming and numbs the sensation of my dreams, a realm I used to escape to in order to find solace and peace. The silence consumes me when I walk away with less than what I walked in with.
It's in these moments of deafening silence that make it harder for me to continue. With tireless thoughts of what once was, what is, and what will never be, the warmth of the past is replaced with the cold present of what has become. Circumstance then becomes a trial. When it hurts to be alone in the silence of what is. When the words that break the silence only speak of what can never be.
Personally, there is an intensity to the silence of life that overwhelms me. It is usually the case when I cannot purge someone from my memories. When I only deepen the burden of emptiness when I remind myself of such a person. When I become urgently desperate to hastily fill in the void that has been left behind. When the emptiness proves overwhelming and numbs the sensation of my dreams, a realm I used to escape to in order to find solace and peace. The silence consumes me when I walk away with less than what I walked in with.
It's in these moments of deafening silence that make it harder for me to continue. With tireless thoughts of what once was, what is, and what will never be, the warmth of the past is replaced with the cold present of what has become. Circumstance then becomes a trial. When it hurts to be alone in the silence of what is. When the words that break the silence only speak of what can never be.
This is when music helps a lost soul. When the very essence of self has been battered by self-destructive judgments and been silenced by the loss of hope. When the lonely nights of too much silence invites thoughts of consuming darkness. It is in moments like these, when the barren land of human growth seems dry, that music replenishes purpose back into the acrid roots of conviction.
I truly believe that I would not be alive today it were not for music.
I truly believe that I would not be alive today it were not for music.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Music and Displacement
As a great fan of the blues and folk, I have noticed the itinerant nature of such songs that sing of tough times, losses to languish, and life gone wrong. I've noticed that songs with themes of dysfunction and instability are attributed by a nomadic lifestyle that have shaped many musicians before and of our time.
There is a spiritual process that connects soul to body and body to life when one is left alone to find a way to survive in the world with little support and without stable living conditions. Within this process also lies the risk of instability and insecurity. But from these human conditions and tendencies is where the greatest and most intense of emotions sprout from hardships that many are lucky enough to not understand. It is from this sorrow, this emptiness, and this yearning for a place in life that resonates within such songs.
But blues and folks songs aren't exclusively from and for the vagabondic. Everyone has felt a little displaced by life's curveballs. This is why I believe many enjoy music in such intense doses.
There is a spiritual process that connects soul to body and body to life when one is left alone to find a way to survive in the world with little support and without stable living conditions. Within this process also lies the risk of instability and insecurity. But from these human conditions and tendencies is where the greatest and most intense of emotions sprout from hardships that many are lucky enough to not understand. It is from this sorrow, this emptiness, and this yearning for a place in life that resonates within such songs.
But blues and folks songs aren't exclusively from and for the vagabondic. Everyone has felt a little displaced by life's curveballs. This is why I believe many enjoy music in such intense doses.
Monday, July 23, 2012
To Music
I owe so much of myself to music.
It was there for me when no one belived in what I could accomplish, it was there for me when no one could take care of me, it was there when I was left heartbroken by the rest, it was there for me when I was stuck in the confusion of circumstance and self-destruction, it was there for me when I had the loneliest nights in my car, it was there for me when I laid my bed in the backseat, it was there for me when I had no one else, but myself.
I used to rely on my eyes to determine and appreciate the beauty of everything. Today, I do not know where I would be without my ears and music, itself
It was there for me when no one belived in what I could accomplish, it was there for me when no one could take care of me, it was there when I was left heartbroken by the rest, it was there for me when I was stuck in the confusion of circumstance and self-destruction, it was there for me when I had the loneliest nights in my car, it was there for me when I laid my bed in the backseat, it was there for me when I had no one else, but myself.
I used to rely on my eyes to determine and appreciate the beauty of everything. Today, I do not know where I would be without my ears and music, itself
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Music and Love
It is impossible for anyone to live without another as it is a part of life to have daily interactions with people. This world is a network of human communication and among the interactions between person to person, there exists a breathtaking and mind preoccuying emotion that has enlightened man and even ruined him many years before our time and continues to today: love.
It has been from my experience that music and love tend to work together through the thick and thin. When love is found in the aimless days of confusion, the overwhleming sensation of companionship inspires a man to confess his devotion through song. But sometimes, when love cannot be, it drives a man insane as he sweats and circles around the idea of something he thought he almost had.
Because of the potency of love and it's prevalance, it does not surprise me that music and love share a deep and almost inseparable connection. Music is a human expression of inner emotions that cannot be done justice with simply just words. Love is also a human expression and it cannot be kept inside a man to be kept as a secret. Considering this, it can be said that music is the heartbeat of love and love is the foundation of music. This partnership of music and love has brought forth a list of music that inspires long after its release date. It only makes sense that songs inspired by the desires of and for love have passed the test of time as love is undeniable, love is universal, and love is timeless.
It has been from my experience that music and love tend to work together through the thick and thin. When love is found in the aimless days of confusion, the overwhleming sensation of companionship inspires a man to confess his devotion through song. But sometimes, when love cannot be, it drives a man insane as he sweats and circles around the idea of something he thought he almost had.
Because of the potency of love and it's prevalance, it does not surprise me that music and love share a deep and almost inseparable connection. Music is a human expression of inner emotions that cannot be done justice with simply just words. Love is also a human expression and it cannot be kept inside a man to be kept as a secret. Considering this, it can be said that music is the heartbeat of love and love is the foundation of music. This partnership of music and love has brought forth a list of music that inspires long after its release date. It only makes sense that songs inspired by the desires of and for love have passed the test of time as love is undeniable, love is universal, and love is timeless.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Music and Vulnerability
Being told to control my emotions has been a common piece of advice for me throughout my life. Former friends have tugged on my arms to try and moderate the ways of how I expressed myself. My parents also have continuously taken me aside and have told me to adapt a life that wasn't as expressive as mine for my safety.
"People see your weakest spots and use them against you," I remember them warning me.
Because of what some people consider my naivety, I have been hurt many times by the hands of others, but these pains do not mark me special. What I have learned first hand is how part of the world sees opportunity in the holes of people. Initially, it shot me in the heart, to finally face a worldly truth that some people find pleasure in salting the wounds of others. During this personally difficult time, I felt I was being punished for being honest with myself, punished for being vulnerable, and punished for trusting the world I lived in.
And it's in this exhaustive moment that music saved me. The unfiltered plea in Queen's "Somebody To Love", the shameless desperation in The Clash's "Should I Stay Or Should I Go", the confusion of existence in Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit", the remorse of living, loss, and conquest in Johnny Cash's "Hurt". It were these songs and more that revived me into believing once more that vulnerability wasn't a weakness, but a strength. The strength to admit that you just yearn for somebody, to admit that you're a fool for someone's love, to admit that you don't know what's going on, to admit that you are broken and have lost many.
Music is a beautiful gift and it gave me the strength to admit that I was only human.
Music is a beautiful gift and it gave me the strength to admit that I was only human.
Friday, July 20, 2012
Music and Loss
It has been a trend in my life to intensely connect with music when times get tougher. When it's much too confusing to go back out and try to make sense of all that has happened. When it got too painful to revisit the places that induced the suffering of what once was. When the void of what I thought was once mine was never within my reach to begin with.
It's fascinating to realize that music alleviates the pain or even worsens it by conjuring up the rush of emotion turbulence through vivid flashbacks. Music will always accompany life, and life is messy. So for as long as I live, there will always be that song to remind me of friends come and gone and times long lost. But from personal experience, it find it more healthy to repeat songs than to repeat memories that only remind me of what I don't have now. And health is always a priority.
It's fascinating to realize that music alleviates the pain or even worsens it by conjuring up the rush of emotion turbulence through vivid flashbacks. Music will always accompany life, and life is messy. So for as long as I live, there will always be that song to remind me of friends come and gone and times long lost. But from personal experience, it find it more healthy to repeat songs than to repeat memories that only remind me of what I don't have now. And health is always a priority.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
My Musical Journey
My continuing musical journey has been an eventful one filled with memorable experiences (sometimes ones I'd like to forget), new people come and gone, and even lessons learned. My memory recollects the moment when I was in the back seat of my uncle's car and hearing the voices of five men singing harmoniously to a power ballad about the "meaning of being lonely". These were the Backstreet Boys and, although they weren't the first band my ears heard, I was hooked. The connection, one that I'm not exactly proud of, was undeniable and it planted the seed of music appreciation, something that I was unaware of at the time.
Of course, my taste in music has graduated from such boy bands (although I do enjoy a good One Direction song). Since then, I have explored the excitement of rock and roll, the beat of jazz, the depths of blues, the trip of psyhedelic rock, the sorrow of grunge, and even the gaudy quirks of Korean pop. Along the way, I have met a variety of different people, shared all kinds of experiences, and even had losses that made me the person I am today. I look back on who I used to listen to and who I listen to now, and I only am excited for what's to come in the future. As I continue to live for experiences, I am sure that my life will bring me to even more music. I am excited and I cannot wait for tomorrow.
Of course, my taste in music has graduated from such boy bands (although I do enjoy a good One Direction song). Since then, I have explored the excitement of rock and roll, the beat of jazz, the depths of blues, the trip of psyhedelic rock, the sorrow of grunge, and even the gaudy quirks of Korean pop. Along the way, I have met a variety of different people, shared all kinds of experiences, and even had losses that made me the person I am today. I look back on who I used to listen to and who I listen to now, and I only am excited for what's to come in the future. As I continue to live for experiences, I am sure that my life will bring me to even more music. I am excited and I cannot wait for tomorrow.
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
The First Three Seconds
It doesn't take very long to fall in love. I believe this is especially true in the realm of music. I would say it takes about three seconds for anyone to come to a conclusion of whether or whether not they connect with the song. At least for me, this is the case.
This blog is dedicated to those first three seconds. That first moment when you realize, "This song is different". It's for those moments when your leg can't stand still because the beats keep flowing from your ears to wherever blood circulates. It's for when the first three seconds turns into hours, days, months, and years of listening to that same song because you just can't get over it. It's that pivotal moment when you'll never forget the song that made you believe in love and that beauty is not only just in the eye of the beholder but also through the ears of the listener.
So here's to those first three seconds. To the moments when it's alright to fall in love with a song because it can never hurt you back. Music is a gift that always keeps on giving.
This blog is dedicated to those first three seconds. That first moment when you realize, "This song is different". It's for those moments when your leg can't stand still because the beats keep flowing from your ears to wherever blood circulates. It's for when the first three seconds turns into hours, days, months, and years of listening to that same song because you just can't get over it. It's that pivotal moment when you'll never forget the song that made you believe in love and that beauty is not only just in the eye of the beholder but also through the ears of the listener.
So here's to those first three seconds. To the moments when it's alright to fall in love with a song because it can never hurt you back. Music is a gift that always keeps on giving.
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